Delirious

HELLO!

Where have I been?
Well, busy working on that one clients meal plan, working my butt off at work, working on my Olympic challenge, and fighting off this ridiculous flu that's been going around.

I had to keep postponing my client, because I didn't have his plan finished, my printer wouldn't print without jamming (as in I tried for 2hrs), I couldn't export the documents I had on my friends borrowed laptop to my computer etc. My client doesn't have a printer....

Wednesday I was feeling horrible. My manager had been off for 2 days with a 100degree fever. I could barely walk on Wednesday- but I stayed my whole shift! I got my temp taken and it was 39.4d Celsius, so about 103.5F. Tuesday I ran down IN TEARS- to my apartment office, to ask if I could use their printer. They acquiesced! So I got some stuff printed, which gave me confidence. Wednesday was a different story. Computer crash, I couldn't connect to the Internet to send myself the files from the laptop to my hotmail. I unplugged my modem from the computer, plugged it into the laptop and NOTHING. Keep in mind the office closes at 6pm. It was past 5 at this point. I insert a flash card and NOTHING. My cell phone battery is dying, I am calling my IT computer dad in panic and the line is busy. I text my friend (who lent me the laptop and does IT) but he doesn't respond. I try to print things out on the mini printer he lent me Monday- it won't load, won't print and my computer won't recognize it. I finally get the flash drive to work, replug the internet modem into my computer and get ready to work. The internet CRASHES. At this point, for no apparent reason, my PRINTER crashes! I have a fever, I am dizzy, shaky, with a pounding headache- nothing is done and it is 5:52pm. I finally fix the net, hotmail myself some documents (NO EDITING) and send them. I run downstairs at 6:02 and luckily get it done.
I stayed up all Wed night in a fevered dizzy state editing the papers (I do better editing actual hard copies vs computer) and feel good.

Thursday morning I am SICK. I debate not going to the gym, but go and have a surprisingly nice workout. I get to work re-editing, etc and go downstairs to do the final print in the office. The guy that let me print is not there! I get it done, and ladies..the RELIEF.

He is a scary client- questions everything. He said I left him speechless (there were 2 folders full- about 12 different meal plans, and then a whole 12pg folder with breakfast recipes, 8 of dinner, 4 lunch, snacks etc). We met for 1.5+hrs.

FFWD to now- 6:58am Friday morning. MY throat has white coating on it, my head feels like a vice is crushing it, my fever is back with a vengeance and I feel like death. I also feel like crying (that's the fever talking) and I can't take a sick day because my manager is off today volunteering at his sons school. I am there with the annoying co-worker @ 9:30am. Then the coworker I love isn't in until 5pm and you can't leave someone alone during the lunch rush. Plus I need money. I don't want to go to the gym, but I will....

Sorry for the rant, happy posts that are coherent are to follow!

Grateful Fridays

Hello!
Do any of your have a constant 'Blogger' narrative going through your head on a constant basis? I do. Everything that happens, I always think about blogging it in my head. Then I get home way to exhausted! lol

I have decided that every Friday I'm going to write about things I was grateful for this week.

I have been feeling more and more exhausted in the mornings, and hitting up the gym later and later... so not like me.

I signed up for the Olympic Challenge @ my gym, and am set on winning it. With my lack of sleep and stress control (2 of the components you must fulfill), I don't know what my chances are.

I am currently drinking my peach mango Xenergy, slamming back my morning energy concoction and really wanting to get off my ass before I fall asleep at the computer.

I work with the co-worker I LOVE today. It's bittersweet, because she found another job and won't be working with me anymore (just some evenings to help out). There are going to be 4 of us!!! WTF!? But, I am GRATEFUL and really excited to see her! Plus my crazy lawyer friend might be stopping by to pick up some protein today, and I haven't hung out with him in months! He is so busy with a case that starts in March (I'm going to go watch!).
Love,
B

Bloggies,
I have had a ROUGH night. I stayed up too late, couldn't sleep, woke up at 5:50am (it's Family Day today-civic holiday; no work/school and gym has weekend hrs) feeling sore, weak, tired, but anxious. I ate a bag of radishes with the BEST mustard EVER! It's from Natural Value and it is their Organic Whole Grain Stone Ground brown mustard!

Seriously- it tastes amazing. I make it into a 'honey mustard' by adding sweetener. If you want a more apple ciderish one, Eden makes a GREAT apple cider vinegar spiked brown mustard. However, I discovered a NEW apple cider vinegar one when I couldn't find the Eden brand. It is incredible! I didn't like the dominant apple cider taste in the Eden one at first- but it grows on you! I can't find a website for the new mustard but it's called LIFE SOURCE prepared Organic Stoneground Mustard. IT is wheat and gluten free. It is distributed by LifeMax Natural Foods (they have NO website). I did find a picture of their DIJON mustard on a Canadian Favorite site. The Stoneground has a lovely green label. Check it out HERE!

I think the caffeine and thermogenics are slowly kicking in and I need to hit the gym. I will update later!

ps-I can't believe I dedicated an entire post to 2 mustard's! SO not where I thought this would be headed!
pps-ANYONE tried coconut vinegar????
B

Happy Chinese New Years and Valentine's!

To all the BEAUTIFUL dedicated bloggers who have touched my life in ways I did not think were possible: THANK YOU and HAPPY NEW YEARS CUM VALENTINES DAY! I am focusing on learning to LOVE myself today.

Every one of your emails, comments etc is SO appreciated! I can't even tell you what a difference it makes psychologically.

Today I am hitting up 'T&T's' in the Pacific Place Mall because where else would one want to be on Chinese New Year???! It will be crazy MAYHEM! Also groceries as per usual.
Update later, running late for gym (again grrr)
XOXO
B

AHHH Late again (Britney Spears song title in mind)

AHHHH
Question: Anyone have mornings when you can't get up? Even if you go to bed on time? I always used to get up 5:40am-6am MAX, without an alarm. Now I am sleeping in all the time- not restful sleep. Yes, I am taking Gravol on a nightly basis, but I've been doing that for a while. I also have crazy vivid, realistic dreams!? It is 7:20am and I haven't even left for the gym yet. I think it's that I'm emotionally and psychologically drained. I will update later...I'm trying to slam back my morning mini pharmacy (aka pre gym energy supplements) with a CranRazz Xenergy as I type this. Yes, I am that multi-talented...I can multi task! ha ha.

I am NOT scheduled for work tomorrow and I am NOT pleased. 4 day weekends- but I NEED the money. Seriously. He shaved off 10hrs from my weekly schedule to accommodate the co-worker I like coming back from her vacation. I love her, but if impacts me so much. He also took off 1hr from EACH day he scheduled me! I say he owes me a good $100 plus $70ish and $24 as well. GRRRR
STRESS.
Thank you to everyone for your support!
Thank you Sophia! You always leave such nice comments, and it makes a world of difference!

It's been so long!

Good Morning Bloggies!
I am sorry for the absence. I kept meaning to write everyday (even forming my sentences/posts while on the elliptical etc) but never got around to actually writing it for several reasons.
1.These past few weeks have been periods of immense HIGHS and killer crushing LOWS.. My energy truly is zapped.
2. I follow so many blogs that I have been days behind on reading them (sorry for the belated/delayed responses on many of your comments). I feel as though I cannot blog until I have read every ones posts. I realized this morning, that that is ridiculous!

The GOOD:
I got 3 new clients. I have been so stressed writing, and re-writing meal plans, grocery lists, supplements, and recipes...I truly wanted to give up.

I was so tired a few weeks ago that I actually didn't go to the gym in the morning! Instead I typed up recipes and plans because I was meeting my client @ 4pm that day. I was SO proud of myself! After work, I thought SCREW IT and went to the gym anyways! I rarely break out of habit, and it felt so good to not freak out, and adapt to the circumstances. I'm glad that I'm breaking my all or nothing mentality.

The BAD:
Work.... I can't even get into it now. I was WRITTEN UP because someones' debit card didn't go through, and I didn't notice and let her walk out with her purchase. I immediately tracked her # down, called her and she came back. Had I not told my manager, and just tracked her down, he would never know.

Irritating co-worker, got the job of assistant manager.... I TRULY can't even think about it. STRESS. My manager has been being truly an asshole- using me as a punching bag. My computer wouldn't save any of my recipe/meal plans/supplement lists in the correct form- meaning my client couldn't open ANYTHING. Luckily, I reformatted, download software etc. I tried to print out some stuff @ the Sugarfree place for a client, but it wouldn't print...AGH.

Today I slept in AGAIN. I am trying to not stress, and planning to hit up the gym after work...
I have so much to tell you, and so many hilarious pictures to show you...
Thanks for the understanding!
Love you all!
B

SORRY for long absence!

I will be back with a recap of sorts, pictures a plenty etc. Things hae been crazy. Not neecessarily good or terrible. Highs and lows. Thank you so much to all the wonderful bloggies that left me comments, sent me messages etc. I read everyone's blog daily. Just have no energy to upload pictures and form cohesive sentences! lol
Love everyone of you, and you have all become tuly a part of my daily life. Thank you for the support!!!!