I was so mad at myself last night that I took 2 gravol, and went to sleep. I just woke up now feeling exhausted and my stomach still hurts from last night. Then I decided I'd weigh myself (again). OMG. Up 8 lbs.

When I started this blog, I wanted to do what I normally do in my work with clients. I do not believe in the food guide whatsoever. I know my products, supplements etc inside out and often have trainers coming to me, football players (pro), cancer patients etc. And yet, with all this knowledge and passion for health, I let emotions derail me yet again. How I behave is all on me.

I DEFINE MYSELF

My Behaviour Is NOT MY Conditions, But My Decisions!

So hence the shame, regret, pain, hurt and more panic. I know better than to cope by numbing myself with food; however healthy the food may appear to be. It doesn't make much of a difference. Abusing something is abusing something. Everyone has their drug of choice.

I am currently sipping on the New SuperPumped 250 by Gaspari in their new flavor Raspberry Lemonade! It is GOOD!!! I actually poured the powder into a shaker full of Xenergy (Bluberry Pomagranate)!

Wish me luck @ the GYM!