Tuesday, May 4, 2010
I have been on this 'Change your thoughts/mind, Change you life' kick- and it has really elevated my mood to a new level. However, yesterday I let some one's comment get to me, and this morning I woke up with that icky feeling in my stomach. Apparently, after I left work yesterday my manager hired another girl. I do not want to go into details, but I am SO sick of this. Too many people, different personalities, and NOBODY makes as much $$$$. I guess what hurt the most was that after working my a$$ off last week, I still feel like I wasn't enough.... that feeds into my mentality and biggest fear. I know he is needing someone who is willing to close later and weekends etc, but inevitably he always schedules them during my shifts, or GIVES them my shifts so they can make money too. I know I shouldn't focus on this, and anticipate the worst. Since my co-worker texted me (smugly, might I add) I felt my stomach turn over and I have been feeling like I am going to vomit ever since. Butterflies (of the unpleasant variety- moths?)... Part of me wants to curl up, stay home and hide. I realize this doesn't solve anything. I just needed a place to vent.
On the + side, I picked up an extra tub of PGX Granules, HOLY BASIL, a book (Chicken Soup- it's uplifting and what I need right now), mushrooms, and The Keg's Seasoning Salt.